Yes'm, it has been quite a while since I last wrote. Needless to say it is about time that I had some time to do what I enjoy doing. I love writing and inspiring; I love encouraging and keeping the public resilient. But what keeps this young woman going? God has everything to do with it. Since I have been going to church, bible study, and attended a religion class at my college, it seems this is a never ending source of encouragement. Thank God for my supportive family, and friends. Thank God for the wonderful blessings. Sometimes I need my battery recharged, so I fled to Michigan for three days. It was a wonderful time, and I loved the surprised face of my Mother, and the surprised voice of my Father when I told him I was ten minutes away from his house. These are the memories I hold dear when they are made. It didn't seem like long enough, but it never is. I was accompanied by my PIC Bella Lucia and we made the road trip both ways. It is always interesting stopping in every state and traveling through time and culture. I am astounded by God's creations. The hills of West Virginia, the flat lands of Ohio, and the beauty of the leaves turning colors as I reached my destination. As I drove, I did a lot of thinking. I have been going through a lot lately, and I don't air out my dirty laundry, but rest assured I will make it, with God and my amazing support system. It feels like a lot sometimes, but I trudge on and I lay my worries to rest and live every day one day at a time. I pray the Lord guides my steps, and directs me to fulfill my purpose on this Earth whatever it may be. I feel blessed to have so many paths available to me, but my fear of deciding where to go is my worst enemy. The Holidays are coming up and will grant me some rest and time off to work on myself and my relationship with God. I have so many dreams and goals, and there are so many ways to obtain them. I need to come back to the Resilience Reservoir sometimes to refresh and renew myself, and it always does the trick. Getting it down in typing always helps me vent in a healthy way. Lord only knows how to comfort this soul. I also want to refresh myself by posting a poem that others may relate with;
I am the silence,
That comes before a storm.
I am the light,
That comes in one form.
What ever shadows pass,
I am here to live the dream.
I wear a smile outside,
I may be sadder than I seem.
Sometimes I get tired,
And I need some time to rest.
It takes the very most of me,
To give my very best.
The love and life is full,
But the tension is creeping in.
I am able to conquer all things,
If I give my trust to Him.
Faith and Pray, Faith and Pray,
I try to do that everyday.
Some days its hard,
Some days I want to be alone.
But I remember what his death has shown.
I rise and fall, I walk and stumble.
I just try to love, and keep myself humble.
I know I am loved.
